Every so often I try to find one word to describe how I am doing. And my word the other week was “demoralized”. Usually, I am a very positive person, but things were just getting to me. It was one of those weeks where I was slogging through a train-wreck pile-up of days where mindless scheduling produced an endless string of 15-minute appointments with people showing up 20 minutes late. Not only that, the air conditioning at Tujunga was not working, computers were freezing up, Dessie’s phone was not working, my nurse took 3 weeks off, I ran out of spring mix in the middle of the week because I did not have time to go to the store, the air conditioning was not working. I was staying at work until 7 pm to get charts done, I had 84 tasks and patients were complaining that I had not called them back about their rash. And did I say the air conditioning was not working??? I came home at the end of the week exhausted and depleted, and I laid on the couch to watch a marathon of House Hunting shows with my husband, imagining what it would be like to search for a beachfront property like those people on TV. By the time I went to bed, I was thinking about how to get out of my funk. I wasn’t feeling like the normal me! Over the years, I have learned to build up my resilience but I was really down in the dumps about how irritating every little thing was, and I had lost all my patience.
A few mornings later I was still thinking about the demoralization thing. I talked to my sister on the phone when she called, and I asked her, “Do you feel demoralized at work?” And she said, “of course, everyone there is like that.” So I asked her “well, how do YOU deal with it?” And she gave me some food for thought that I have been digesting ever since. Here are 3 gems she gave me to think about which I want to share with you all:
These tidbits of wisdom really helped me get through the week. Maybe it will give you food for thought when you go through your next period of demoralization!